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So, yeah, I got my new timetable and I officially announce that my Friday is FREE. RAWR. That means I can go back on Thursday after 8am class; have a cup of hot chocolate in the late morning. What a great potion to make my day :) Im gonna set my goals for the last semester of my foundation year as I have definitely learnt something, um, bout what can be a somewhat. Lol. Chinese new year is just coming so soon. Im not ready yet! Somehow I dont really have a cny-mood-on yet. Hmm, perhaps I did hear this from someone else and it reminds me what Im feeling so strong right now. The year is just started! I have made a great decision to commit myself to a pursuit of intellect, being a sexy nerd maybe? :D

Jan: Happy New Year peoples! :)

一小片段

这类的事在发生但一直以来都是在新年之前解决的。好像这次不是。从来都不知道家里的状况是那么的不理想，可能因为都习惯了，他们再说我也是很麻木的了解和接受。哥哥完全了解现在的情况，也跟我说到很明白。简单的来说，就是今年没有新年衣，没有多的钱用，最重要的是可能读不了书。身为家里的一分子，大家都不应该自私。但是谁都明白，他的个性。大家是撑得很辛苦。虽然一直以来零用钱都很有限，多数都是自己要很省很省才能过，又不想开口要。这次又来一个考验。失业的危机搞得全家团团转。不团结又有什么用？还是很冷静，从听到消息到现在。最怕这样的自己。

Jan: 对于没有新年衣有点失望。但是我宁愿有的读书。

是04/09吧 :)

其实我看得出你一直在装作不知道。没关系的，要问就开口。我会照实回答 :)  一切都过了。现在的我们也只有这样。我也能很肯定地告诉你，我很会控制和调理自己。今年就剩两天。

Jan: 所以你才是错过我的那个人

A short one.

So, I got my results and im quite satisfied. It is much more better than the previous semester. Lets see. Hmm, it was a tiring semester for me. It took me two sems to adapt and manage myself into this kind of study life. Eww! I ain't gonna stay up late for my whole new semester. Promise promise :D Im having a great holiss so far, and it gonna leads me to a fresh fresh fresh new beginning of my new sem! RAWR

Jan: Rich and moist chocolate cake made my day :D

27/12

你知道吗
很多事情是为你，想为你。有一种不想看你在受伤的冲动。但是渐渐我才明白这些不是我应该做的。其实傻的也不只是你。曾经也傻傻的享受你带来的小小快乐和满足，我也知道这些都很多了，是我不应该多拥有还妄想占有的，因为你没想过给我那一点特殊的。
每个女生心里都有一个，一直都在的，会心一笑的原因。而你就是那个原因。你答应过我很多，但是开玩笑的我不知道是那些，因为我都很认真地相信了 :)) 那，我答应你。我不会让你愧疚，然后在你不惊觉的时候离开，不忍心看你再心疲惫，一点点都不要。
那天，你会发现我们不一样了。
你还是会在我生活中，我还是在，在抽屉里的那一叠满满关于你的字迹都还在，封锁的回忆在，给不了的都在，只是不适合了 :) 知道吗。我不能给了。
曾经我也沉溺在你给的温暖中，现在什么都应该还你了，谢谢你 :)

Jan: 抽屉里的那一叠关于你的字迹都在

16.11.2011 看过电影的那个夜晚

我不是一个容易被剧情影响的人。所以最让我心动的电影，一定是悸动到内心，感动了却没有流泪而淡淡一再回味的情节。每个人确实被九把刀这部电影感动了，而我觉得最令人感叹的是，他的文字和真实的写作让再简单的故事小插曲都美好了一点，因为看着同一部电影的人，种种的回忆才弥漫了整个电影院。

    Jan: 娴说的，好好珍惜身边的人，因为这样看着自己心爱的人很心酸

This is what insomnia does to people

久违的一个睡不着的夜晚。回到家才能好好的思考自己的情绪，怎么样的波动，怎么样的被影响和怎么样的成长中。很想以曾经15岁的那个我来发发牢骚。亲爱的她说过让我一直挥散不去的那些话：我还是最喜欢15岁那时的你，静静地又很成熟。

我何尝不喜欢？但是那已经是当时。我们都知道的，接触的环境和人在改变，自己的年龄也增长，迟早就得像让自己吃不消又无时敬佩的大人们一样，那样大人。

最近的这一切一切也曾经爆开过。老实说，如果我只是一个无灵的个体，我会随着我自己的好过造成你的挽回不了。但是我不是，不曾也不会是，所以你大可以放心的去随心所欲。

我答应过自己的，不会喜欢上还没喜欢上自己的人。

我说，在你看开之前我就会先离开你的视线。

我说，谢谢你给我的每一句都是存在的。

我说，你的出现让我有了从前的温暖，那种有个人只想好好疼你的温暖。

我说，感谢主让我爱自己，即使痛了累了也还爱你还自己。

                              Jan: *Huggss*

I believe in manicures. I believe in overdressing. I believe in primping at leisure and wearing lipstick. I believe in pink. I believe happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day, and... I believe in miracles.
Audrey Hepburn 


Well, I don't love pink but I do believe in pink :))
粉红对我来说绝对不是女孩的最爱，不是幸福的颜色，不是让我为之疯狂的它。
是静止的兴奋，在心里昂起的开心，也是很唯美的痛。
最近的一切好像都很自然，在我没有预期的发生，也发生的很美。我还是喜欢这样不约束自己的限制，让自己成为别人的标准。那些很欣赏我的人，谢谢他们让我知道，那我做自己做得成功是吧？ :)
常跟别人说：家人把你照顾得好好的，长大了，干干净净漂漂亮亮的，到了照顾自己的时候就要更爱你自己，像别人爱你那样爱，那样的知道你的每一个小细节，每一个优缺点，从而去爱去接受。
所以可以不害臊的承认，人家爱你爱得有理由


                 Jan : :))

Hey there, beautiful Thursday baby :))

*Heart
Heart myself today. For being so tired for the whole day time, for understanding a person, for doing my best in studies, for Loving myself and my family, and friends :))
想起了那时看过的电影，Facing the giant. 里面说的类似是：
成功要赞美主，失败要赞美主，开心要赞美主，难过也要赞美主。
这样的话看出来了吗？有多美。真的，当我无时无刻都想起这句话，什么事情都变得不是理所当然，不是机缘巧合，是上帝的计划，他的安排。这样的每一天都很美丽，很充实。当你把他的话藏在心里，你就不曾寂寞。这是我自己的感受，是我觉得无可取代的安宁。

                        Jan: Papa loves you :))

lil' part of Mine.

Well, it was a long long night for me, tears overflowed as well as the guilt and it cried out, screamed, madly deep inside. Thank God, there's no much people around me, who went through a lot as me. It turns out situation just like people don't recognize this kind of pressure and feeling. They tend to be sympathizing, and it is not needed at all.
I pray, pray for everything that I couldn't be doing. There's always answer in prayer, so, trust Him.

                             Jan: Guai :))

Loved, love :))

是我觉得很动心的电影，即恋空过后的，
初恋这件小事 :)
里面的一切都好熟悉，都是我们曾经经历的，很简单却甜甜酸酸的
我还是喜欢这样纯纯的恋爱，所以都不想触碰这些复杂的人。

                Jan: 我也曾经哭到刘海都湿湿的

It's flooded again.

Um, there's always someone telling me that I Shouldn't be missing her and our past but I am.
I forgave her. when I was keeping quiet in the crowd, when I was deleting all the messages stated her apologies, truth or false. It doesn't matter actually, never.
It might sounds ridiculous but it is true.
You are still there and always be.
There's still a seat, never be replaced.
I would like to receive a message from her, tells that she is fine and hope I am as well.
Maybe someone who 'll be telling her this?
Tone.

                              Jan: :)

In LOVE *whoots!

:)) Dear babies, it is a random cloudy day. I would like to share something.
I Love.

Jan: Always be the better one because you deserve it.

16.08 sweet-preparation-for-last-paper-day =D

Pardon me, I would like to say, WUHOOUU!! I'M COMING HOME!!
Er-hem, done :D
Fyi, I'm going to enjoy my 2weeks plus sem-break holiholiday *wink
So, 'm gonna do something um, interesting. Yea, interesting, it sounds mystical hmm :P And definitely my family members have the priority of booking me, t-hee!
I just found that there's a BIG promotion for air-ticket and I was like ' oh my gosh my blanket my mama it's so cheap! '.So I've planned to go to Perth, Australia in may2012. In progress, I hope we can make it. Pray hard pray hard.
And the most important part is, 'm gonna dye my hair into black/dark brownish. I hate what it appears right now. *rawr

               Jan: basic computing paper is really annoying right? Yes.

15.08 The 1st day of final exam =O

Contrary to popular myth, being a human are not worse than being a bookworm ! Oops , no offence , it'a just a simply lil' thought running through my mind when I first heard there's people saying : ' We came here to study not to play and supper.' Fyi, she / he always been disdainful to those who are not study in library nor carrying books around the campus with breads =0 Hmm , my friends got mad on her / his ' great remarks ' but I was um , quite okay with it. I have totally no idea why should I get mad on it because actually some of us ( including me :P ) are having the better results compared to hers / his . So , is it kind of way-of-release- pressure ? Um , God Bless you my dear dear friend . *Wink , imma study for the next final now , toodles ! =D
                             Jan : green shirt for tomorrow :)

Silent-still-Inti-life 12.08

It's raining outside. Inti is still silent as usual since almost 3/4 of students are having break. Hmm, nothing much to say. Picture-journal :))

                              Jan : Study ! and get ready for holis =DD !