This is what insomnia does to people

久违的一个睡不着的夜晚。回到家才能好好的思考自己的情绪，怎么样的波动，怎么样的被影响和怎么样的成长中。很想以曾经15岁的那个我来发发牢骚。亲爱的她说过让我一直挥散不去的那些话：我还是最喜欢15岁那时的你，静静地又很成熟。

我何尝不喜欢？但是那已经是当时。我们都知道的，接触的环境和人在改变，自己的年龄也增长，迟早就得像让自己吃不消又无时敬佩的大人们一样，那样大人。

最近的这一切一切也曾经爆开过。老实说，如果我只是一个无灵的个体，我会随着我自己的好过造成你的挽回不了。但是我不是，不曾也不会是，所以你大可以放心的去随心所欲。

我答应过自己的，不会喜欢上还没喜欢上自己的人。

我说，在你看开之前我就会先离开你的视线。

我说，谢谢你给我的每一句都是存在的。

我说，你的出现让我有了从前的温暖，那种有个人只想好好疼你的温暖。

我说，感谢主让我爱自己，即使痛了累了也还爱你还自己。

                              Jan: *Huggss*

I believe in manicures. I believe in overdressing. I believe in primping at leisure and wearing lipstick. I believe in pink. I believe happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day, and... I believe in miracles.
Audrey Hepburn 


Well, I don't love pink but I do believe in pink :))
粉红对我来说绝对不是女孩的最爱，不是幸福的颜色，不是让我为之疯狂的它。
是静止的兴奋，在心里昂起的开心，也是很唯美的痛。
最近的一切好像都很自然，在我没有预期的发生，也发生的很美。我还是喜欢这样不约束自己的限制，让自己成为别人的标准。那些很欣赏我的人，谢谢他们让我知道，那我做自己做得成功是吧？ :)
常跟别人说：家人把你照顾得好好的，长大了，干干净净漂漂亮亮的，到了照顾自己的时候就要更爱你自己，像别人爱你那样爱，那样的知道你的每一个小细节，每一个优缺点，从而去爱去接受。
所以可以不害臊的承认，人家爱你爱得有理由


                 Jan : :))

Hey there, beautiful Thursday baby :))

*Heart
Heart myself today. For being so tired for the whole day time, for understanding a person, for doing my best in studies, for Loving myself and my family, and friends :))
想起了那时看过的电影，Facing the giant. 里面说的类似是：
成功要赞美主，失败要赞美主，开心要赞美主，难过也要赞美主。
这样的话看出来了吗？有多美。真的，当我无时无刻都想起这句话，什么事情都变得不是理所当然，不是机缘巧合，是上帝的计划，他的安排。这样的每一天都很美丽，很充实。当你把他的话藏在心里，你就不曾寂寞。这是我自己的感受，是我觉得无可取代的安宁。

                        Jan: Papa loves you :))

lil' part of Mine.

Well, it was a long long night for me, tears overflowed as well as the guilt and it cried out, screamed, madly deep inside. Thank God, there's no much people around me, who went through a lot as me. It turns out situation just like people don't recognize this kind of pressure and feeling. They tend to be sympathizing, and it is not needed at all.
I pray, pray for everything that I couldn't be doing. There's always answer in prayer, so, trust Him.

                             Jan: Guai :))

Loved, love :))

是我觉得很动心的电影，即恋空过后的，
初恋这件小事 :)
里面的一切都好熟悉，都是我们曾经经历的，很简单却甜甜酸酸的
我还是喜欢这样纯纯的恋爱，所以都不想触碰这些复杂的人。

                Jan: 我也曾经哭到刘海都湿湿的

It's flooded again.

Um, there's always someone telling me that I Shouldn't be missing her and our past but I am.
I forgave her. when I was keeping quiet in the crowd, when I was deleting all the messages stated her apologies, truth or false. It doesn't matter actually, never.
It might sounds ridiculous but it is true.
You are still there and always be.
There's still a seat, never be replaced.
I would like to receive a message from her, tells that she is fine and hope I am as well.
Maybe someone who 'll be telling her this?
Tone.

                              Jan: :)

In LOVE *whoots!

:)) Dear babies, it is a random cloudy day. I would like to share something.
I Love.

Jan: Always be the better one because you deserve it.